sadz

people.. i've just realise something..

i dont have a lot of company in Melbourne..

my frens here do spend time with me, which is super fun and cool, but when they retreat to other frens once in a while, i go into a state of depression..

i just become so so so so so sad.. i feel as though the world has turned it's back on me, that i am so alone in this world.. i cry, i stone around, i sit on the toilet bowl staring at the wall, or just do my homework to keep me busy..

maybe that's why i look forward to clubbing so much. coz it makes me feel as though there's a life in my life! i have fun, though it's not very healthy, but at least i dont do it so often... unfortunately, i can't always go. coz of various reasons, homework, no one to go with, no cool people going and stuff..

come to think of it, maybe i should find some other forms of entertainment. but what? the TV is my regular entertainer but it's "loserific" to saty at home and watch TV all day..(come to think of it.. i always do that...)

lucky for me i have my dance club.. though i am not a very very active member yet.. i wanna be one.. i love dancing, not the clubbing one (but i dont hate it) just yaterday, sunday night, i was invited to this potluck party at jeremin's house...

it was so fun.. i never had so much fun, besides with my usual frens here before.. it's cool right.... they made me feel part of their group, even though i wasn't int he dance the host cheographed. i felt so accepted and happy... we played games, we ate, and of course, we watched a DVD "you've been served" it's a show about dancing.. so cool man.. i went there at 6+ and came home at 12+. very cool.. =)

looks like i have to be happier in my life. i try not to feel sad and lonely sometimes.. but i just do.. wish i had my family here with me..