family blues again

............. this is the lowest i've felt this week. And it's because of my family again.


It's just so hard to talk to my dad. He's not even making the effort to try to talk to me about normal stuff. I email, i call, i sms. But all i get is one liners or one worders like "ok" or "will send money tmr." In calls, he tries to cut it to as short as possible. "okie? okie.. byebye.. love you darling.."


sigh, i know you are busy daddy. but can't you just soare 5 mins more or even 3 mins more to tlak to me about your day? about my day? The only time you called was when i apssed my driving test. I've never heard you speak to me this happy for so long. not since i scored all 'A's in my exams..


I know you expect a hell alot from me dad. A 97% on my math test in primary6 wasn't even good enough for you. i still remember the words till today "how come no 100%?"


I know you want to try to push me further. further that i can attain, maybe further than you can attain. But just for once, please come back down to earth and speak to me like a happy father?


Sigh.. and my mum.. she just loves to give me the insecurity about our finances. Come on lah. I am not blind. The stuff you buy now? Please lah.. Be honest with me can, stop making me feel insecure.


Lucky for me, i have frens here to help.