bored

freaking bored.. I did nothing, met no one, and rotted this entire day.


tried calling people out. didn't work. tried doing some housework to direct my agony of loniness away from my mind, worked a little bit. tried calling my mom to wish her happy b-day, she didn't pick up.


my other mom tells me to 'cope'. cope with anything that comes my way. well i coped for 20 days. And didn't manage to do so well today. What's worst, i wanted to go shopping to cheer myself up but i realised that i really didn't want to part with my money.


sometimes i really hate my life.


sigh....