CRAP

it's 4am and i have AHM tmr and i have no motivation whatso ever

contrary to what i said in my previous posts, i am not putting in an effort as i want to..

today is just bad. ni finished her exams and it just sent my mood to the ground. yes, i'm envious of her freedom and i keep thinking why the hell am i in thsi coourse.

but of course i look at neko and i knwo why.

sigh i wish i didn't feel lousy today. perhaps i could have studied better and faster and earlier and..........

feel like CRAP